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18 Oct

I’ve never been great at asking for help.

I’m not really sure where this personality trait came from.

I like to think that it is because I was raised as a strong, independent woman but in reality it is probably because I am stubborn and think that I can only rely on myself most of the time. Don’t get me wrong! I mean I love it when Kyle helps around the house. But lets just say that he hasn’t quite perfected the art of laundry. Like the time he left wet clothes in the washer for four days and the mildew smell just about made me loose my breakfast and want to run out of the apartment.

Regardless of the reason for my independence, this is a matter of fact. Normally I wouldn’t ask someone to go get me a napkin at a restaurant or for my husband to go get me a hot dog on his way home from work at 10 o’clock at night, but pregnancy has allowed me to break out of my self-sufficiency shell and start asking for some help. I don’t feel like it has gotten to the point of taking advantage of people, and I hope it never does, but I do feel like I have taken some pleasure in passing some responsibility to take some self-induced pressure off myself.

During my 14 weeks of pregnancy, I have felt guilty about one thing. I really have not eaten as clean and healthy as I was before we took our trip to California. For a while, nothing sounded good to me. And for a while, all I wanted was french fries and ranch dressing. And throughout this whole 14 weeks, I really have allowed myself to eat whatever sounded good to me at the time, and if that included pizza and candy corn, then so be it. For instance, my breakfast choices have been cereal or almost-plain oatmeal. My lunches and dinner: soup, pre-made salads, mashed potatoes, guacamole and chips, whatever. Nothing spectacular and certainly nothing blog-worthy.

On the other hand, there are a two things about this situation that has made me feel a bit less guilty than I thought I would. It has been nice to eat freely and not obsess about remaining gluten and dairy free. Also, I still have not gained much weight thus far, so this makes me feel that I haven’t over-indulged in potato chips and french fries to the point of insanity or danger.

But the guilt remains that I really have not been fueling my body or our baby very well and I most certainly have not been cooking much at all for my husband. Now that I am getting my appetite back and I am ready for some healthy food again I am sensing that it is time I need to start eating better and get back into the kitchen. The only problem with this is that I have NO culinary creativity currently (see list of meals above). Almost nightly I am texting Kyle to ask him what he thinks I should make for dinner.

Luckily, I’ve been contacted by the VeloPress company to help review their latest cookbook The Feeding Zone by Biju Thomas and Allen Lim. This book is very much geared towards athletes. Since finding out our great news, I’ve taken back seat in this area, but my husband is still working hard on his cycling endeavors. Even so, this book is not only for athletes. While thumbing through the pages upon its arrival, I was drawn to the short ingredient lists, minimal prep and cook time and clean, fresh ingredients. Simplicity with a purpose. And truthfully the generous protein servings and nutrient dense ingredients will be perfect for a growing baby. This book makes me feel comfortable with the time and nutrition that it will provide my family.

Tonight we try out Ground Turkey Shepherd’s Pie.

This recipe was really easy. And I will be honest that when I was piling the meat in with the mashed potatoes on top, I thought there would be little flavor, merely because there were so few ingredients. But I was wrong! It was great and very comforting on a chilly fall evening.

This recipe perfectly embodies what I mentioned earlier about there being good, lean protein sources as well as vital nutrients for both a growing baby and a training athlete.

I’m looking forward to more help from this source. I’ve got not problem leaning on chef Biju and doctor Lim for meals because otherwise, we’re back to eating cereal and spaghetti with jar pasta for dinner.



the baby chronicles

30 Sep

So yes, big changes are on the way for us.

Are we ready for them? Yes and no.

This baby doesn’t come as much of a surprise as we were not, “not trying” to have one. But still a surprise nonetheless! So far I have had a range of several emotions regarding the welcoming of a new life into this world. I have felt extreme gratitude as I mentioned in the last post. This has been peppered with a small shocks of fear in the realization that this is actually happening. I’ve also been lost in fantastic day dreams in trying to imagine what our baby will look like, to hear their laugh, and snuggling up against their soft chubby cheeks.

12 week bump shot

But being 12 weeks in, I have also felt my share of pregnancy related issues. As it turns out, I was pregnant while we were on our trip to California. While there, I wanted french fries non-stop. This craving hasn’t stopped since, either! I just can not get enough of french fries with ranch dressing! In general I have been craving salty foods, eggs, as well as crunchy chips and fruit juices/lemonade. There was a good 2-3 weeks where I truly lost my appetite. I could not eat anything in the morning at all and I was so nauseous through out the day that the only thing that sounded remotely appealing was soup and fried eggs. I never got to the point of throwing up, but the nausea was strong enough to keep my appetite at bay. I’m having struggles with eating healthily as many things do not sound good to me at all. I will exaggerate on this later and give more insights into what I have been eating.

The first week after getting back from California, I felt great. No differences. Then all of a sudden I lost all energy. It was extremely hard for me to get through an eight hour day. I fell asleep on the couch as soon as I got home from work and I felt like I could easily sleep through the night if I went to bed at 8:30. As of today, I feel my energy slowly coming back to me, but I still feel the need to nap and would love to get 10 hours of sleep per night!

I’ve got the sewing bug and already have desired to start making things for baby. Especially after perusing and purchasing this book! We’ve received our first baby gift from my mother-in-law. The cutest booties ever! We have also been to the thrift store to pick up a few basic onesies that I can’t wait to print designs on.

Baby tube socks!!

According to our scale at home, I have not gained any weight. In fact I lost a couple since arriving home from California. Everything I have read says this is perfectly normal in the first trimester. Although I did have an interesting conversation the other day while at work:

Co-worker: How far along are you?

Me: 11 weeks. Why do you ask?

Co-worker: Are you growing two babies in there?

Me: (laughs, slightly taken aback and embarassed) Ha, the picture only showed one! Although there is a possibility of two is good! In case you weren’t aware, Kyle is a twin! 

SO apparently I am showing already. It’s hard for me to really tell right now, except for the sheer fact that I had to go buy maternity pants a few days ago. I’ve already outgrown all but two of my “regular” pants, and even those were becoming less and less comfortable as the days have gone by.

How has Kyle been through all of this? He seems to be experiencing mostly the same emotions as I am. Just yesterday he said that it still does not seem real to him.  And he’s definitely not ready to talk about the birthing process. And quite frankly, I don’t know if I am either. The other day sent me an email about viewing natural birth and a c-section and the thought of watching that did not appeal to me in the least. Granted, I WAS eating lunch… soooo, yeah. Which makes me think, how was I EVER ready to watch this in middle school health class?!

We have another appointment today, so hopefully we will get another shot of our little one!



22 Sep

Truth be told, this has been a long and arduous summer. Great things have happened amidst the full schedules that we have been carrying. The bathroom has only been cleaned once all summer and the kitchen has generally remained in a state of disarray since  Memorial day. We’ve bought a few plants and 1 out of 5 lived. Pretty decent. We’ve accumulated more books but not any time to read them. We’ve been on retreats, 14er hikes, softball games and a wonderful vacation.  We flew to beautiful La Jolla, California. We went really cheap and did not get a rental car and got a tiny little room a couple blocks from the beach. But it was all worth it. It was a perfect cap to our busy summer because we walked around town, ate a lot of delicious food and laid on the beach. Perfection. 
We came back rested, refreshed and ready for our daily lives. Actually after this trip things started changing for us immediately.

The name of our blog will be completely wrong in a short amount of time. Our lease is up in November and we have decided that we do not want to to renew. We have outgrown this space with two dogs and we are ready for a change. We’ve begun looking already. So far it has been a frustrating ride, but we are trying to be patient through the whole process. Because that is what they tell you on My First Place and House Hunters, right?

And secondly, we are not actually getting another dog because we will be getting more space (although not entirely out of the question). Instead, we are adding another person to our family. The day we got back from our vacation we found out that we will be having a baby!!Here are our reactions immediately following. We have been excited, scared and shocked since finding out. But personally I have felt gratitude more than anything. I feel so blessed that God has chosen me to carry this gift and chosen us to be parents! Food choices and energy levels have been… interesting, to say the least, but I plan to keep you updated on everything. So far it doesn’t seem completely real, but slowly it is starting to hit us. For instance, I had to go buy maternity pants this morning!

Until next time,